Letting Go

For many years I lived in the midst of chaos. My Mothers was a hardcore alcoholic. Our family dynamic was enabling and unhealthy. I witnessed terrible things, and was helpless to stop them. I never knew normal, and carry heavy emotional scars. My identity and behavior was been shaped around this painful past. I amContinue reading “Letting Go”

Finding Myself

I went for a walk to clear my head tonight. The days are still cold, but the bright sun lingers a bit longer each day. I’m exhausted, but trying my best to take advantage the extra daylight. We are living in Manchester, and I take walks up at the local college. Being on campus madeContinue reading “Finding Myself”

Overcoming Chaos

To say this weekend has been rough is an understatement. My instinct is to keep things private. To discuss things is to let that wall down. To let people in is to show weakness. It goes against everything that has been bred into me since childhood. Yet sharing can be cathartic, and helps us grow.  Continue reading “Overcoming Chaos”

Trauma Laundry

As the last of the laundry was folded, I sighed in relief. It feels incredibly good to get things done. It may seem small, but for me it is important to get laundry done. It is something that I am just learning to do. Usually laundry goes like this…… I wait till there is wayContinue reading “Trauma Laundry”

Throw out the rule book

” I don’t know if you have noticed, but you have been in a better mood.” My husband said offhandedly. It has been two weeks since we moved back to Manchester. Two weeks since we left the stress of Greenfield behind. Things are better, and I feel happier. It was hard decision to make. WeContinue reading “Throw out the rule book”

Less is More

I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am nearing thirty, and feel the pressure of another milestone birthday creeping closer. Choices need to made about how to spend the rest of my life.One thing that I have been thinking about the type of life that I want to lead. The last few years,Continue reading “Less is More”

Book Review: Between Shades of Gray

I am a big reader, and my goal for 2019 is 30 books. So far I have read two books. The last book I read was Ruta Sepetys Between Shades of Gray. It is a historical fiction based in Europe during World War Two. Here are my thoughts on the book. This book focuses onContinue reading “Book Review: Between Shades of Gray”

My Past

What are you up to this weekend? In New Hampshire we finally have some snow on the ground. It has been a dry boring winter, so the snow is a welcome change. We also are FINALLY done moving. This weekend has been our first calm weekend since December. The down time has given me timeContinue reading “My Past”

Five Favorite Books

 Reading is one of my favorite activities.  There is something special about sitting down at the end of a hard day with a good book.  I love it so much that my undergraduate degree was in English with a specialty in literature. About a week ago I did a post on books, and it seemedContinue reading “Five Favorite Books”