Letting Go

For many years I lived in the midst of chaos. My Mothers was a hardcore alcoholic. Our family dynamic was enabling and unhealthy. I witnessed terrible things, and was helpless to stop them. I never knew normal, and carry heavy emotional scars. My identity and behavior was been shaped around this painful past. I am […]

Finding Happiness

I have been away, taking some time to regroup. Late in 2018 we faced some challenges that forced us to move in with family. We traded in a wide open country lifestyle for a hectic urban one. It was hard, but we needed to get out of a toxic situation. Yet it has been an […]

Overcoming Chaos

To say this weekend has been rough is an understatement. My instinct is to keep things private. To discuss things is to let that wall down. To let people in is to show weakness. It goes against everything that has been bred into me since childhood. Yet sharing can be cathartic, and helps us grow.   […]

Kennebunk Beach

On Saturday we went up to Maine for the day. It was a beautiful Winter day. It just warm enough so that wind coming off the water wasn’t bitter. The dogs played while we walked down the beach. I brought my Nikon D7100 along and was able to get some awesome pictures. I wanted to […]

What I am Thankful for

 Here in New Hampshire it seems we are in the full grips of Winter. We have had three snowstorms in a week. Today is Thanksgiving, and I am wondering where 2018 has gone. As I get older the years go quicker, with no sign of slowing down. Since it is Thanksgiving I want to share what […]

Wedding Planning

  One of the most exciting event for me this year is my Wedding. I am so excited for September, but there is so much work to be done. I am about halfway through, and have learned so much. So I figured I would share my thoughts. Here are some fun types on how to make […]

Summers End and New Beginnings

Here in NH, Fall is upon us. The days are getting shorter, and I find that it is dark when I get home from work now. It is bittersweet, but I am looking forward to the changes. I am looking forward to the leaves changing and bitter winter storms that will follow. Our summer was […]

Sunset Home

We had a good night last night. Dinner was ready when I got home, and we ate quickly. After we donned hiking gear, and headed up the mountain. Recently I moved out of Manchester, back to the country where I belong. One are my days trying to dodge heroin needles, and angry glances of people […]

Thousands of Pictures

A year later I still find myself regrouping. I am kinda disappointed, yet when I really think deeper, I know there is nothing to be ashamed of. It has been a hard year. Yet now it is time to buckle down and get this dream moving. I have made some progress on writing. No paying […]