Life Passing By

Simple post tonight. It is early October. A gentle rain falls outside as I sit inside warm sipping my coffee.  Darkness falls early this time of year, as we move steadily towards winter.

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This year, life got away from me.  It has been full of so many new and exciting things. A new job, and a new puppy, a new stage of my relationship with marriage.  The year has been full of excitement, and so much emotion.  Yet I suddenly looked up and October was here. Three season have passed without notice.  It can be funny how life passes by like that.

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As the season is winding down, so is our schedule. For the first time in month we have time to take a breath.  Yet life goes on, and even now, life continues on. New challenges  present themselves.  Yet I am not falling to pieces. I have found a calmness that will help me through. Thing will be ok.

Maybe that is the gift of hardship. It makes you steady on uneven ground.

 

 

 

 

A Change of Heart.

I hope that this finds you in good spirits. First off, Happy New Year!  I hope that you all had a great 2017. I am writing here to announce something exciting. I will be returning to this blog.  I enjoyed being part of the community here, and I want to return. I didn’t realize how much this community meant to me until I left.

2017 was a difficult year for me. Our dog passed away from cancer, which was rough. Our landlords also sold our condo unexpectedly, creating a chaotic series of moves for us. There were good things too, and it would be unfair to ignore them. chiefly, my and my boyfriend of 5 years got engaged. I moved back to my hometown as well.  Honestly 2017 was a mixed bag. It ended up all right in the end, but I am happy to be leaving it in the rear view mirror.

 This year I am trying to return to my roots. The chaos of last year left little time for writing. In 2018 I am committing to writing more, and some other things I will share later on. I am so excited to share them with you.

What are your goals for the year? let me know in the comments. Otherise, I will talk to you all soon.

 

Colleen

 

 

 

 

Night Pictures

Life is pretty good right now. Getting ready to cook dinner then go for a quick hike for sunset. Recently we moved from Manchester to the Monadnock Region. I have been much happier since we moved out here. I have never really been happy in the city. It also enables us to spend much more time outside. People are kinder out here, and overall it is a better quality life.

The weekend went by quick as usual. Today was the first day I have taken off from taking pictures since Friday. I figured I should take some time to edit some stuff. I am about halfway through editing photos now, just have to figure out what to do with them. Like I have mentioned before, it is going to take a backseat to my writing. It is more of a hobby right now as I hone my skills. But who knows, stranger things have happened. Maybe that will take off first. I’m really open to anything.

 

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Photo By Colleen Ann for North Pack Media

I go back in forth before writing and photography. Art helps me balance life out. Both help me feed my creative side, yet they do it in different ways. It is inevitable that I need time off. I like to be busy, I like projects, yet I also recognize that I do need to momentarily step away. If I don’t get burnt out and my performance suffers.

I had been working on a piece of fiction that hopefully will be published in the Fall. It was fun working on it, but after two weeks of intense editing I needed a break. So I have been taking photos lately. I am really excited because I have taken some awesome night shots. They are nothing compared to some folks night shots, but they are a start. It was the first time I had even taken night photos, so I was happy I even got the stars. You have to start somewhere right?

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Photo By Colleen Ann at North pack Media.

So I hope that all of you are doing as well as I am. I hope that you are finding time to do the things that you love. Have a great week and follow your dreams!

Summer Rest

We are finally getting some rain here. We had a dry Winter that has continued into a dry Summer. It first it was glorious, yet now the plants are brittle and the lawns are brown. We have needs this rain. Today it has been cool and rainy, a nice change. I enjoy the cool weather, it is a relief.

Life has been more of the same, working with a smattering of writing and photography mixed in. The weather has been so nice. We have been outside a lot and I have not done much writing. We have been spending the long Summer days enjoying all New Hampshire has to offer. By the time I get home, I am so tired I can barely keep my eyes open. I am happy, yet I also know that I need to work on my writing.

I just finished another article for Explorer Gear. I hope to see it out soon. I was also supposed to do another article for another group, but I am on the fence about it. I like the subject, but I am unsure of if I want to submit it. I have had mixed feeling about the organization it is for.

The more that I think about it, the more that they seems like a corporation. Their articles are good, but they don’t represent the state in the way that I wish to. I think that I may be better off showcasing my work elsewhere. Opportunities are great and exciting. Yet even at this early stage I have to be careful in choosing them. There are many opportunities out there, but you have to be sure to find one that fit you.

Originally I wanted to write for them. But I’ve had a change in heart. They don’t seem like they know the state too well. I hate speaking negatively, but I just don’t know if I want my work associated with the site. I think they do good work, but it isn’t in line with where I want my career to go.

I just think there are better ways that I can spend my time writing. I was actually thinking of the idea of starting my own magazine. I want to continue blazing my own path, and I’m looking for a challenge. Maybe that is what I need.

Sunset Home

We had a good night last night. Dinner was ready when I got home, and we ate quickly. After we donned hiking gear, and headed up the mountain. Recently I moved out of Manchester, back to the country where I belong. One are my days trying to dodge heroin needles, and angry glances of people in the supermarket. No more sirens in the middle in the night.

Whenever we get a chance, we hike the mountain. It is not a big hill, but it is good for training. It also gives us a great view in most directions. It is a nice place to get away from the world. I wish I could spend more time up in the mountains. I feel total peace when I hiking, everything else fades away, and it is just me and the mountain.

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We stood at the top last night, and I snapped a couple pictures. I then take some time to relax and enjoy the view. The Monadnock Region laid out like a blanket below us. It may not be the biggest mountains in the world, but its home.

Lessons on Winter

Its been a cold week here in New Hampshire. Our Winter as a whole has been warm, with little snow. Yet last week the season made its hard entrance. Temperatures plummeted, before quietly sliding into the negatives. The sun went down, and it became dangerously cold. As the darkness settled down around us, the wind kicked up, screeching as it rattled the the window. It was the kind of night when you bundle up under the covers and wait till morning.

The weekend was not much better, and I spent it inside. I love winter, yet this weekend, if you went outside in a matter of moments your face would ache. I was trying to nurse a cold, and I knew that it would be better to stay inside. I love skiing, and being outside, and my weekend felt empty, yet I knew it was the right call. Now that I have a seasons pass it doesn’t hurt to skip a weekend. I can ere on the side of caution, because there are always other days. I spent the weekend reading, wrapped up in a blanket, while my Boxer laid idly across my lap.

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The days were defined by bright sunny days and pale blue skies. The mornings are deceivingly beautiful, yet they threaten to take the air right from your lungs. The robins sing cheerfully, like it is a warm summer morning. You can be fooled as you listen to them warble, that is until you step outside.

The nights were clear, a deep blue blanket scattered with stars. The moon steadily gaining once again. It hangs like a pale yellow sliver in the sky. These are the deep blue nights of February. I like to get outside and enjoy it, once this arctic front melts away. There is something unique about Winter nights. Something about the deep blue of the sky. The bitter cold makes the stars twinkle brighter. The hard edges to the season define its beauty, creating an image that is hard to turn away from. I love bundling up and heading outside. Turning off the lights and gazing up into the majesty of universe.

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Nothing is like Winter. There is a quiet beauty, that most people miss. Our society has taken an attitude of negativity when it comes to short days of Winter. People lament about the sunshine and cold temperatures cursing Nature. Yet don’t the cold long nights of winter make us love those long sunny days? I just consider it another magnificent part of this life, and I let go and enjoy it.

The Coming Year

Hope this finds everyone in good spirits after the holiday. Here in New Hampshire we are expecting a snowstorm. I cannot wait for the world to turn winter wonderland overnight. It is hard to believe that we are hurtling towards 2016. I am looking forward to the New Year and all that it will bring. 2015 has been a mixed bag for me, and while I grew so much, I am looking forward to a clean slate.

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Photo By Colleen Ann.

After Thanksgiving I took the plunge of buying a New Nikon, and it has a fierce learning curve. I am looking forward to longer days, so I can get out and learn the settings. It takes incredible photos, but I want to become a master of it, and I want to excel further towards my goals. I am lucky to have a good job, but my ultimate goals is to work for myself writing and taking photographs.

I have spent the majority of the month finishing the first major edit of my manuscript. Even as I write, all I want to do is get back to molding my story. It is a fictional story that I began to think of when I was 15 years old, and it is hard to believe that it has come this far. I hope that someday soon I can share it with the world. In many ways It is like bearing the surface of my heart to the entire world, so it is frightening. Yet also incredibly exciting. It has been a story I have been working on for so many years, and I cannot express how excited I am to see it come to life. I am happy that I started blogging, because it has given me the confidence to continue to pursue publishing.

I hope that you all have a wonderful end to your holiday season,