Restless Soul

 

I have a restless soul, I always have. Since I have been out of college I have not been able to settle.  I feel like I still need to find my home.  Last month I turned 28, and now I am feeling the pressure of that.  I feel Like I have been knocked off course so many times. I have always wanted to write, but  people have never really respected that. When I was seventeen I told a guidance counselor about my big dreams. She looked at me with an incredulous look.

” You’ll never make money doing that.” She said rudely.

As embarrassing as it is, I am still overcoming that comment. The comment fed on my shaky confidence. Naively I listened to her, and followed a different path. After four years, I left school with an liberal arts degree, and no direction.  Since college, I have been floating around, bumping from job to job that I hate. I have tried to fit into the preconceived notion of success, and truth is, I hate it.  I still haven’t found my passion, and my frustration grows daily.  I have come to the conclusion  that things need to change.

This is part of the effort to correct that. I am trying to put words down each day, hoping that I will get better.  Each day I need to write, even if it it makes no sense. I need to spend time each day thinking and writing. It is the only was I am going to get better. In the past I have made big beautiful plans, and they always fall to pieces. Maybe instead of these gold plates plans I need to set realistic goals.  I want to follow my dreams, and right now, that is just about putting one foot in front of the other.

Have you ever had a struggle like this? If you have, drop a comment below!

 

 

 

 

 

Published by Colleen

My name is Colleen, and I am a writer and photographer from New Hampshire. I love exploring and discovering. I write pieces that focus around the history and landscape of New England, and other things that may come to mind.

One thought on “Restless Soul

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: