Introvert

It is difficult, being an introvert in a loud world. I have always been an introvert, so this  is something that I have wanted to write for a while. It took me some time to find the words. For those of you who don’t really understand what is an introvert, here is a great guide. As a introvert,Sometimes I find it difficult to navigate our fast paced world. Last week was a rough week, and it brought out many of my key characteristics.  I wanted to write about it, while they were still fresh in my mind.

Last week was crazy. Work was hectic, and each night I came home exhausted.  I am also in the midst of planning a wedding, and that had its own set of challenges.  By the end of the week I was strung out, and overstimulated. By Saturday, I was exhausted, emotional and short.  I was suffering from an introvert hangover.

It sounds pretty crazy doesn’t it, the term introvert hangover?  But it happens.  A few months back a website called introvert Dear did a great piece on it. After reading the article I found that it explained so much for me. I had always had issues after a busy weekend, or a hectic day at work full of meetings. I got exhausted and cranky, and couldn’t find words to express it.  After a long weekend with friends and family, I would be drained and irritable. I thought that there was something wrong with me. Most people found being around people renewing, but it did the exact opposite for me. I realized that I was over doing it, my schedule was unbalanced,

As an introvert I need quiet time to help me thrive. I can spend time with others, but it has to be in controlled doses. I have to make space for quiet time in my life, and if i don’t things get difficult.Most of the time I can be demure and well behaved, but when upset, I  get ugly. Last week, I had all the telltale signs of one. Withdrawn and irritable, I had a meltdown culminated with an existential crisis about if  we should go out for steak and cheese or pad thai Friday night.  That is why I need to ensure I am leading a balanced life.  

Some days I just want to retreat back into the folds of my personality and enjoy the quiet of the moment. It is part of who I am.  When I get overwhelmed, I communicate that to the people I love, and then withdraw. I want to go for a walk or sit in a quiet corner and read a book.I need the solitude to thrive, and I am done apologizing for that. Yet I also have to make sure I am taking steps to be there for those I love. I take time before big events, so I can be at my best when I am with them. I want to be present with all of them. It is all about balance.

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